swatches's Blog

I was having severe chest pains that radiated down my left arm, and i couldn't hardly catch my breath. My husband took me to the Hospital, and i was run through a whole bunch of tests and they determined I had, had a Heart Attack. i was admitted to the hospital for about 4 days then sent home. Still trying to get caught up on my sleep. didn't sleep very good in the hospital. You never do anyway. Hubby told his boss about my Heart attack, and His wife has been coming down to help get things done in the house. Which is wonderful. She is so funny and loves to spoil the cats. She is a lot of help, and of course Hubby fixes supper every night, and it is wonderful.

I am starting to get my strength back a little at a time, but still feeling a little weak right now. Have to get to feeling better by next month though. My brother's Birthday, and we are having a Surprise party for him, so i have to feel better by then.

My three kitties and i spent the day and last night over at my Mothers. She enjoyed so much and two of the cats slept with her and the other one slept with me. Mark is out of town for a few days and will be home late tomorrow night. The landlords put new ceiling tiles and painted the living room for us. It looks wonderful now.

The kities and I had to stay at my mother's because the paint wasn't dry yet and the fumes were a little to strong for the kitties, so we went to my Mothers. Snowball the White Cat we have was on my Mother's lap most of the time and Pumpkin got up on her lap too. Patches however didn't but that didn't seem to bother my Mother any. Patches was having an attitude problem last night and today for awhile. We are all back home now and Patches is running around and as happy as can be. Talk about an attitude on a cat Geez. She has certaintly got and attitude on her lately, but it is funny, how she ignores certain people  and then will get on their laps and let them pet her. All three kitties are happy to be home again though.

I just wanted to wish all my EP Friends a very Happy 2010 New Year. Hopefully it is filled with laughter, love and enjoyment. I am hoping my 2010 goes good. I have a good feeling it will.

It is hard to believe a new year is upon us already. It seems like just yesterday we were celebrating a new year. I really don't know where 2009 went. It just seems to have flown by us. Our kitties are fat and sassy and getting more spoiled, but that is okay. Had a BIG PARTY last night and it was a lot of fun. Went to my Mother's for Lunch today. My Nephew and his Wife were celebrating their 5th Anniversary today. They both said it has been a LONG five years, but they are still very much in love today as they were when they married. Have a GREAT YEAR EVERYONE. You are special to me and I want everyone to be HAPPY if they can. May God Bless you all.

On Wednesday, November 4, 2009 I had stopped at the gas station and was putting gas in my car when Someone backs into me and cause $1300 dollars worth of damage. The right front passanger door, and the back passaneger door . She could not see out her back window of her Jeep Cherrokee, because there was to much stuff in there and she wasn't using her side mirrors either, or she would have seen she didn't have enough room. But she hit me, and I was lucky the car didn't blow up, since I was pumping gas into it when she hit me, I  called my brother that night and told him what happened and he said, I have definately got a Guadian Angel looking out for me. He said if I didn't believe in Angels before I should now. Well I told him Our house is full of Angels. I even have a couple of them sitting outside. Mark was very supportive as usual and got me calmed down. But as she hit, the car moved a little bit and it pinned my leg. I had to have surgery on it yesterday and I am home but in a lot of pain. I have Pain Pills and will probably take one after bit here. But I AM A VERY LUCKY PERSON.

I just want to say to all my Friends on here that I love you all very much.

I enjoy reading your stories, and things like that. I know I should leave more comments and I am sorry about that. Some of the stories are so touching, I just dont know what to say.

I have been married for 4 months now and I love it, and am very Happpy with him. He is a wonderful preson. I love coming on to this sight and seeing that I have mail or gestures or something. It is wonderful.

I have been keeping pretty busy with 3 kitties now, and being ill with Blood Clots and Pnumonia, and other things. If it isn't one thing it is another or Half a dozen other things going on. Also am fighting Flare ups of Sickle Cell Anemia.

Aside from all that, I am doing pretty good, and hopefully can start spending a little more time on here. I haven't been on much because of illness, but hoping I will be back to my ornery self and be on more. Thanks to all my friends who keep me coming back to EP. You guys are wonderful.

I am verysad right now. The Blood Clots thatI have are not dissolvig and the ones on the Lungs have gotten worse. I have to use an inhaler type of machine to breath at times, and it is hard to use when you hurt so bad.

My husband has been so supportive, and can only handle so much. It is taking a toll on our relationship. Not sure what to do right now.  I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me, but we are begining to wonder if I shouldn't go away for awhile. Find a hospital that will admit me and dissolve these stupid clots.

Our Wedding was beautiful and full of love and laughter. My Brother walked me down the Aisle, and he tripped on my dress, but didn't fall. My mother started sneezing and couldn't stop for awhile, but finally did. I didn't have flowers in my hair like wanted, because they wouldn't stay in my hair. Kept falling out. My friends that stood up with me, started laughing when I got tongue tied and had trouble speaking. But I finally got my composure and everything was fine after that. Mark's Boutaneer fell off during the ceremony, and The Preacher fumbled a little bit, but all in all it was a beautiful wedding. At the Reception, it was time for our Dance and so we were dancing and I tripped on my feet, so I kicked my shoes off and  they hit my one Sister in the head. Everybody started laughing and so did she. Now we are in a hotel in Hawaii for our Honeymoon. It is beautiful and we are going for a walk after while. I am feeling absolutely wonderful.

We are getting Married on Feb. 14, because he was drafted and has to leave March 1, and he is being sent to Iraq and will be gone 6 months or longer. The arrangements are all made and in less then 2 weeks I will walk down the aisle to the love of my life.  I know he will return home to me safely, and we can begin our lives together. I am trying to be strong about all of this, but it hurts down deep, and all I want to do is Cry.

The Doctors had to do emergecy surgery on my hand yesterday morning. It was so swollen, and Blue that I could not move my fingers at all. My fiance took me out to the hospital, and they x-rayed it, and took me into surgery, at 9:00 yesrterday morning, and I was back home by 6:00 last night. The surgery lasted 5 hours. They had to cut over the old scar, and go in about 2 inches deep, in order to get ahold of the tumors. It turns out there was one tumor and one Blood Clot in my hand. They removed the blood clot also. It was a very tricky and dangerous surgery, because of all the blood clots that I have. It is very swollen and hurting today, but at least I can move my fingers a little bit today. Have to wear the bandage for 6 weeks, ad a splint for 3 months to get it healed up. The doctors said my hand would be healed up by June in time for the Wedding. I hope they are right. I was a little scared, but came through the surgery just fine. I am on high potent pain pills that I have to take every 4 hours.

I found out from the surgeon that I can't have surger after all because of the history of blood clots and the fact that Iwould have to be off of teh Coumadin for two weeks prior to surgery, I run the risk of getting another blood clot. I have one from the wrist up to the elbow in the left arm, and it is really swollen. I have a small clot underneath the tumor on my hand, so he can not do surgery. I have to wear a Splint on it for 2 or 3 months and then go back and see him again.

I am so scared right now. I have to have surgery on my left hand next week, and I can't even wear my engagement ring right now, because my hand is tripled in size. I have two tumors on the palm of my hand that has doubled in size since last month. They are going to have to remove them and  I will more than likely be in the hospital overnight. I don;t like speding time away from my fiance or my kitties. Maybe they will just do it right in the doctor's office and I can come home the same day. I am just really scared right now, because it is my left hand and I just happen to be left handed. So I am a little scared. Patches and Pumpkin both know something is up. They have been on my lap quite a bit, the last few days. I am also very sad right now.

I spent almost 4 hours in the ER at the hospital. They did a lot of tests and X-rays and I have bBlood Clots in both ankles, legs, arms, lungs and a small one on my heart. I am on two types of Blood Thinners, now, and hopefully that will help thin the blood. It is still too thick, and my Sickle Cell Anemia, is flared up too. Feeling depressed right now.

I am feeling a little scared right now. I have to go out to the hospital, and see about my legs. They are swollen and hurting, and it is hard to walk on them and the right ankle is swoolen too. I am a litttle scared but hopefully it is just inflamation, and not blood clots, which is what I am worried about right now. Will keep updates.

Today and this week has been absolutely wonderful. I am happy and love everyone and everything. I have a lot of love to give and things are going amazingly well for me. It has been a rough road, but things are finally looking uo for me, and I couldn't be happier. God Bless You All.

I am not doing very good right now. I found out from the Doctor, that I am having Heart Palpitations, and 5 small blood clots around my heart. I have to go in for an echocardigram, and full body scan Saturday morning, and see if there are more blood clots any where else, and just what is the problem with my heart. He has got me on Nitroglycerin tablets for when I have pain and palpitations. I am really scared but I know that Iwill survive this, and be o.k. I have to believe that anway.

I now have a picture of my cat in my profile that you can see now if anybody wants to see it they can.

I went to the doctor the other day, becuase the left side of my face was numb, and so was my leg, He did tests and found out that I had a Stroke, that affected my whole left side. Not to mention, I have a Blood CLot in my left leg, and on my kidneys. I also have a ruptured disc in my back, but I will recover from the stroke. It is just going to take a while.

I love Experience Project. It is a wonderful sight, that really helped me find myself, and draw me out of my depression I was in at the time. It is a sight, where you don't have to hide your feelings, and you get to be yourself. EP is a wonderful sight, and i am glad to be a member.

when you are sand and feeling blue and need someone to be near, a friend is there for you. You have nothing to fear, for this friend is always there. He will never leave your side. When you want to hide, he Won't let you. The friend I am talking about is GOD.He is always there. All you have to do is let him into your heart.Once he's there, you can more of the person you want to be.You can laugh, cry or what everand GOD will be right there holding you and won't let go.GOD is that friend who is always there no matter what. Whether you're feeling sand and blue or whether you're happy ad excited, God will always be there, in good and bad times. don't ever be afraid to ask GOD for help or pray. He is truly The Friend Who Is Always There.

The weather is warm

the sky is blue.

Since you've been gone

I really miss you.

I love you a lot

and it's hard to say,I love you because

you're so far away.

Special feelings of love ad joy,

will be with us each day

so when I see your face

I love you forever, I will always say.

Stay here with me

under the stars and together

we will never be far.

To my love

with my head held high

and with love from above,

For now I must say good-bye.